It's been yet another long period of time without blogging for me, so here goes!

Last Saturday was TPJC Alumni Band / Concert Band concert...played about 6 songs if i remember correctly. Tell you ah, Lion King Highlights is an absolute masterpiece. Not surprising, if you ask me. Hans Zimmer composed it =D Really good song. Good focus on the main parts of the movie, and the transitions from slow to fast, happy to sad, brings out a myriad of emotion. Wonderful...played The Incredibles too...I'm just glad I didn't cock up on the drumkit. The concert wasn't exactly a good one and though the audience had to pay $7 for a ticket in, what they got, as everyone commented, wasn't worth the money. Eugene Tan, one of our band teachers in charge, gave us hell on Monday for that. Everyone was so pissed...a few of my percussionists played the funeral song on the mallets dedicated to him after he had left. LOL. Mrs Neo is better...more 'motherly' as I should put it. We just gotta work harder! One more month plus plus to SYF...

Ping Yi and SPF's SYF is coming soon too. Early April if i remember correctly...I haven't been going back too. Wish them all the very best...Titans will always be able to make it if they want to. They can. It's whether they want to put in that extra bit of effort, going beyond their limits to expand their abilities and then rising triumphant. Go Go Go!

The past few days and weeks have been quite stressing for me. And that's a surprise, people! Remember what I said? I never get stressed one!!! Well, monday wednesday and friday...band till around 8pm, and Thursday got chem remedial, so basically only tuesday free. I managed to get mum to let me stop piano till I step down from band where I have more time to study and practice the piano. So that's kinda settled. I gotta start revising soon! Chem teacher talked to me today...she said she expected an A for me this coming A levels...and I've been slacking and not performing up to standard. That, I know. haha. I have to start studying.

I want my straight As. GP dunno how to get A sia. keep failing. haha. read more!

I miss dear so very much. Gonna see her tmr!!!! wahaha. muz make her super happy cuz she's going to miss me so so much from next Friday to Sunday. Did I mention? I'm going Sunway Lagoon with my family. Gonna be a blast! Wish dear could accompany me...if that was even remotely possible. hahaha. soon lah okay? =) I gotta check out the stuff there and see what I can bring home! Chang Yuan, don't say I treat you badly. I just want what is best for you. And you don't know what is best for you. Trust me. I know. We know =D I need more time to spend with dear. It's like once every week with all the band and the studying. These two have to come first, unfortunately. Gotta prioritise properly...hope dear understands. I never want to put her behind anything else. Whatever I do I TRY to do for a reason. I can't afford to continue being my old irresponsible, incompetent, untrustworthy self which I have been for too long a time.

Cheers to everyone, and as my principal always says, God bless you all!

Hey people! I haven't been updating for quite a while, I can tell. Here's a quick breakdown on the oh-so-boring happenings in my life, minus going back to PY, going for TPJC band camp, and spending time with dearest!

Last week's March hols was almost nonexistent, with band on Monday, Wednesday, Friday and Saturday, with the last two being days of the band camp. Damn I was a total zombie on Saturday. Care to guess why? Nevermind, I don't have the patience to sit here and wait for your lame minds to work (you're lame if you even visit this blog in the first place).

I slept at 4.30am and woke up at 6.30am for breakfast...and I had a fillet-o-fish meal for supper...at 3am. LOL. My junior was complaining about the time the food arrived...We made our orders at 1am (when I say make orders, I mean writing down what we wanted and giving it to our band admin) ...but they only called at like 2 plus. haha.

AND YOU KNOW WHAT!?!?!? I didn't bathe. At all. Considering the fact that I had played soccer on Friday afternoon...and later again at around 12am...I stank....pretty bad. lol. I actually didn't intend to stay so yeah, I didn't bring any toiletries or anything, and I stupidly rejected mum's offer to bring stuff over for me. Curse this ego of mine =)

yeah, band camp was fun! The two new juniors for the percussion section...Clarence and Cai Le (both guys and both pianists from Dunman Sec)...full of crap man! They are so damn fun...lol. The first thing they do when they step into the band room was play some song together on the marimba. haha. Good to have crappers like me in my section. wahahahaha.

okay, holiday over! I did go for ping yi band on thursday with dearest...they're really improving a lot! my section still loves me...I think. Didn't feel the warmth that day. haha. and me and dearest took lame pics at the block near to the bubble tea shop too!

Here they are!





I only uploaded these too cuz I look exceptionally dashing in these =D BHB RIGHT! TOO BADDDDDD!!!! =DDD

I got back my chemistry CD SPA trial (for those who dunno...its a chim term for practical.) today...shocking sia. got 15/16...looks like the studying paid off =D I won't be as happy for my chem results I think. Physics was okay...28 half /40...maths still dunno yet. I want my papers back!!!! to show my mum how much I've been studying!! (well, actually not much lah, but it's enough if you ask me. For now, of course)

CHAPTER 5 HAS BEEN COMPLETED those who are interested...its under the fourth button =D or is it fifth? is there even a fifth? aiya, I dun even know my own blog. haha. I think you all have at least a quarter of a brain to go and find it...

cheers!!!

[[loves...I'm your Black Knight!]]

Today's a very special day! and this post shall be wholly dedicated to what makes today so special. it's dear and I's second month together! just these two months have been great; every moment spent with her is something to remember..for a long long time. Despite having some times when one of us or both of us felt down and out; it wasn't long before we picked each other up with encouraging words and verbal gifts of love and security.

I know its too early to tell but I know we'll last a lifetime (or so I hope) and whenever I can I'm always prepared to give her the best I can afford, not only on monetary terms, but from what's inside as well. I don't know if she'll have the patience to wait for me if I were to study or work overseas, but I know I will. There's something about her that keeps me solidly drawn to her...it's something that didn't just come about but was developed over the months and years. It's something I'll not soon lose grasp of.

But what I CAN do now is to make these days with her the happiest they can be, and even if we don't manage to pull through for us to live happily ever after...at least we can go with no regrets. I wouldn't want to though. haha.

I love you dear and I never want to let you go...no matter the odds and how they are against us, I know we can stick together and pull through as anyone else would have because we believe we can do so. Our differences are nothing compared to what we now share. Our woes are drowned by the happiness we share together. If life on this planet has one thing to offer me, then I would only choose you, because you bring me up and everytime I'm with you its just so natural and I feel like I can fly. I don't have wings though. Wonder how that'll happen.

I believe that the love we share is special and this is one that won't die as long as we're always conscious of each other and have each other at the back of our minds. Let's make this shine together =)

i love you baby =)                                                -120107

hey guys! sorry for updating so late...I've been god damn it busy for the past two weeks, and this one is no exception. Tests, homework and studying...it's all going haywire. I just feel like banging my head against the wall. Whats more, band on 1,3,5 has effectively reduced my life to 2/5ths of what it was before. Now I'm reaching home at 6-7pm every day except Tuesday which is my only damn free day...gotta make good use of that.

I seriously see no use of taking piano lessons now. Everyday is so rush for me I dun even fucking have time to study for my tests and whatnot. Much less practice the piano and TAKE MY GRADE 8 EXAM like wtf. where got time? I haven't been practicing for weeks in a row and I don't think I'll be breaking that damn chain anytime soon. Mum is paying $215 a month for nothing, and she doesn't want to let me drop. And she says I waste her money. She is wasting her own god damn money. Tuition? Math tuition is not helping. I offered to let her save an additional $120 per month but once again, she rejected. So currently I am 'wasting' $335 (no, i didn't use a damn calculator) a month because my mum refuses to listen to me. Forget it.

Went to see the VP yesterday about my incessant absence from band over the past 1-2 months. Don't worry, I've been going since before we had that unnecessary meeting. He was all cool, using a threatening tone to put his points across. What makes him think he can scare me? He talked about what a band is supposed to be like. A team. You don't have to tell me that. You don't know where I came from. He talked about discipline. Once again, a pointless issue. Again, You don't know where I came from. 20 minutes of my life wasted. Oh well, just go for band, and I get to stay in school. Simple as that. Just putting that across could have saved me 19 minutes and 50 seconds.

For those of you who are wondering...yes, school has been good. And it just keeps getting better. Gotta start mugging for tests and for my A levels this year. Still don't have a very solid plan on what to do during my university years. Mum suggested Law. Too much work. I wanted to do Aerospace/Aeronautical Engineering. That takes a hell of a lot of physics and math foundation...and I gotta work overseas. Perhaps you guys will see me in Boeing/Lockheed Martin/McDonnel Douglas/whatever in my twenties.

Another option was getting laser eye surgery and joining the air force. Ain't easy to be the cream of the crop. That, like all others, is a decision with a shaky backing which I cannot really vouch for right now.

I'm tired...and a little disorientated. Perhaps my next post will be brighter and a little more easy on your spirits.

I gotta call dear now...she's upset...Don't worry. I'll get her to feel happy. I always do. =)