hmMmMmmMm....?

yoZ...sammiE kinda forced me to...well...haha...no la. Juz thought of updatin my bLog since it's been like a long time since I did...not much stuff goin on, but really lookin forward to the first day of alumni band...so fun! exams comin just next week and I'm totally still not prepared...gotta start studying soon (shouldn't I have started long ago by the way...) ... ... SammiE juz gave me two letters this week...and I gotta reply them quick and give them to her next week! oh ya...goin to study with a few ppl at tampines regional library...be a guaI kiA for some time till after the exams...LoLz... my com did crash a few days ago so sorry for those who couldn't find me online...(yes dear...I know ur one of dem...haHaz) and who knew? the ACER guy juz came to my home and REFORMATTED MY COMPUTER! that means: 300 songs gone, games gone, personal info gone, everything gone! any MORON would know that reformatting was not quite an option for me as i WANTED ALL MY STUFF INTACT...feel like smashing his head into a wall...don't use his brain...

hmMmMmm...spend alot of romantic moments with you know who...heEz...won't ever forget that one moment...when no one was around...and we were soOo close...haha...I know you'll get goosebumps after reading this so I won't quite elaborate yea? LoLz...lookin forward to another such moment...heEz...LovE u 4evA!!! By the way...remember to study hard okaEz?? exams next week le...gotta do well and get your new phone!! [donT think of me too much yea...LOL]

I'm spendin more time playing soccer and such...work myself out a little after lazing around at home (now you know how I spend my free time...) hmm...ee woon and suhaila saw me and the fag (ivan) playin soccer at the big field...dunno what most ppL call it...I juz call it a field...LoLs...hmm...wanna get my hands on a snare or tom soon...hand itchy! juz wrote a solo in school juz nw...only the first part though...more to come!

Oh well...end here le laHz...nothing much to say! later goin out to eat seafood...muaHahahas...take carE and byebyez!!

P.S. love the pics dear dear...keep em' forever! mUacKz =p

PhYsicallY & mEnTallY tIreD...... T_T

Hais...today DAMN frickin tired...both physically and mentally...guess wad time I went home? 4:45pm...after more than 4 hours of intensive physics by the mad buffalo cHeoH...she really think we all are electric buffaloes ar...recharge batteries can go and do summore physics for her le...threw another 3 physics MYE papers at us today...in addition to the 4-5 plus we have already...she mad lohz...I noe the more papers we do, the better we get, and that's what I believe in...but this is way too taxing...WHATS MORE! I was supposed to meet up with sAmmiE today...like every other Tuesday...but becuase of this mad buffalo the whole class had to stay back and drink physics like water...siao liao...in class I couldn't concentrate at all...too much physics can go mad...I wonder how Einstein lived up over seventy...wuz in a v. bad mood...I think sAmmiE was too...hais...sorry la dear...cannot meet up with u todaE...

Oh well...felt much better after goin behind to get a waffle with chang yuan...told sAmmiE about CY's bottomless pit...so damn funnie sia...LoLz...felt even better when I got home and played GB with her...after that did all my homework and packed my room (have u seen the state of it before today?)...felt even better! so satisfying to have a tidy room and all your homework done...heEz...feel's great to be a good student! hahaHas.... hais...thursday probably goin to meet sAmmiE to make up for today...hope nothing's on! Gelled my hair for nothing today sia...hee...ok lahz...end here le...cyAz!!

-=S&K=- lovE ya 4evA!!! mUacKz =p

rEallY mEhz.....?

Juz remembered a movie I watched like...two years ago...it was the best movie I'd watched in this 15 years of my life....Love Actually... It meant so much, so much till the feeling of watching it still lingers within me till today. It brought out the true meaning of love; that it's not only the one you're attached to, the one you're married to, or the one you seem to care the most for. Love, is actually is ALL AROUND...who do you love the most? "Umm...him! no wait, her! hey..no, this one! erm, nope..THAT one!" It's all around. It's contagious! You cant help but let the love flow to everyone around you, so everyone gets a fair share of your love. This may be difficult to understand, but this movie is the one that guided me to one of my beliefs, and that is "Love others, even though they don't return it." Everyone deserves a fair share of love. Tell you something, if everyone believes in this, there would be no wars, no terrorists, so sickness and plague, no hunger and sorrow. The world would be a perfect place...

So who do YOU love?

SPF BAND: siLvEr w/ HONOURS [we deserve it.]

Yesterday was a solemn, somewhat disappointing day for SPF Titans, especially the graduating seniors (and myself). 1pm, the announcement of the results for the AM session on the second day of SYF Central Judging of Concert Bands...the most intense moment since last outdoor. Everyone had pinned high hopes on the results; some with hands clasped, hoping and praying that our wish (and the final wish for the seniors) would come true. Truth be told, the only 2 things on my mind were: SPF SS, Gold or...Gold with Honours, then everybody would be jumping and screaming, shaking hands, congratulating each other. But it wasn't like that...not at all!

"Band 42: Springfield Secondary School... Silver"

*hush*. The whole band remained silent...everything seemed to shatter before our own eyes. Everything we worked for, and this is the highest recognition we deserve? Is this the colour of metal that will determine and remain the SPF Titans' musical standard for the next two years till 2007? Is all the effort we put in really gone down the drain? How do we face our peers, our fans, our principal, our teachers, our friends, our parents, and ourselves... Everything seemed oblivious to me at that moment, and soon after I heard that the seniors cried their hearts out...I blamed myself...I let my seniors down...I made my seniors cry! That is the worst sin I can think of...and that's to make someone cry. Torn apart over and over again...even the little bits and pieces of me...slashed and burned. Nothing mattered anymore. The Titans were defeated, or at least, for the moment...

Mr. Poh came along and consoled us as best he could...to me, failure is only the beginning of success, and no successful person had achieved anything without failing before. Is this the time to fall down and stay down, or is this the time to stand up and fight with a zealous fervor like never before? The latter is not impossible, because, NOTHING is impossible. Yes, the taste of defeat is bitter. ok, it SUCKS. But this is a valuable lesson for all of us: what comes up will come down, but it won't stay down if you have the will to start climbing the mountain of success and achievement all over again. Achievement is truly more important than recognition. Although we didn't get that yellow metal we longed for in the past 6-8 months, we made people feel music...as it should be. The true meaning of music is to convey emotions, and we brought out that very fact on that day.

"We really enjoyed the music. Your band was feeling the music so well, I could feel it too. You deserve the Gold."

And this is a real achievement. Never before have we made other people feel music the same way as we did. The Titans have not faltered in their quest for musicality. This is a mere stepping stone on the stairway to victory, a landmark in its own way, although receiving no recognition. But we are a band to be respected and feared, because in 2006 and 2007, we will be back...with a vengeance...

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE, AND IT'S ALL IN THE MIND!

*SILVER WITH HONOURS* Silver: Musicality Honours: Musicality with expression of emotion.

SYF...2 daEs...goLd or not? GOLD LA!

2 more daEz to SYF Central Judging...34 more hours to be more precise...it seems as though juz yesterday we've been to Thailand and back. And now we face one of the greatest challenges we've had in years...Really gives you a sense of satisfaction when you look back and remember everything you've created and left behind...all you've experienced, sweet or sour, it gives you a sense of pride that you can't really find in other places...hundreds of days, thousands of hours, millions of minutes, billions of seconds...the scorching sunlight, and cold rain, the scoldings spat at you when you do something wrong...don't start to hate all of that, cuz it's all for the best, and the best is on Tuesday, 12th April 2005. In the blink of an eye, the sec4s and 5s are stopping band to study for our 'O's...but the spirit of the band still lies within us. But no matter how strong is our attraction to the band, we can never leave our studies for it. Yesterday was the last Springfield Military Band flag raising and lowering with the graduating students, the first of its kind. Although the graduating students would be in the Alumni after SYF, it just wouldn't be the same...What can we achieve now? Only that day will tell...

Today is another special day for me and a certain someone...its me and saMmiE's first month! again, time seems to go by quicker than we expect it...hmMm..dunno wad to get her lehx...today oso quite frustrated...both of us were like at the same place at the same time, but just couldn't get the chance to meet up on this special day...she was celebrating kai qian's b'daE with some friends...watched a horror movie while i wasted my time away at the Xbox at Tangs...lol...can even msG me in the theatre....silly girl...no guts den watch samara...loLz. duN worry...I'll always be here for u...heEz. can't wait to meet up with you soon!! i wanna give u sumthin special...REALLY special...LoLz...in the mean time...dun miss me too much! cuz i dun wan u to miss me MORE den i miss u...heeHeeZ...

okaeZ...end here liao...everything shifts back to SYF...condition your mind, cuz NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE, AND IT'S ALL IN THE MIND!

happY 1st monTh dear dear...heEz...*muaCkZ*

SyF...saMmiE...sTudiEs...emptiness.

Seems to me I feel closer and closer to her everyday...It was just after that day...yes...Friday...My most loving moments with her...not too long though, although it did feel like a million years juz being so close to her...in the bus, at the bus stop, to her house...everything felt just great...I love u dear dearx...MuacKz!!! =p Not much happening this week, except for the Titans Percussion performance at Bedok Stadium on Friday...It was absolutely fantastic. To hell with the mistakes, it was a satisfying performance...PING YIANS ROCK!

Stupid Cheoh...xing wei, harry and I were making fun of her the whole two periods of Maths on Friday...Band started quite late yesterday partly cuz of the rain and SJAB hogging the porch and the upper areas...fortunately we could set them aside for a while for us to fall in...sectional marching all the way till around 9:30 or 10 plus... (I lost track of time for all the sweat that I was drenched in...didn't bother to check...) Lunch break came exceptionally quick. (mercifully) Had to combine later on in the hall, den the not-so-dry conditions at the concourse...quite shiok la...except for the muffled sounds of the snare and toms and the erratic tuning of the timpani...the rest was quite ok...

Went home at around 6 plus...to my aunt's house, actually...sampled my uncle's DELICIOUS barbecued food...chicken, beef, shrimp, mushrooms, wadeva...it was all there...I had dunno how many servings...so full and smelt of barbecue when I got home...lols...Was actually playing Xbox the whole time until my mum called me for like...ten times...den I managed to pull myself away.

Today went to buy books...so many guide books and TYS...really want to start studying after April12th...REALLY want to do well in 'O's so I can go to a good JC...what am I aiming for? TPJC...MJC (backup)... If i can surpass my goals maybe I'll get into VJC...but what are the chances of that? Whatever it is...I must do my best, cuz NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE, AND IT'S ALL IN THE MIND!

Competition is just 1 week+ away....need to bring out my 'highest' BEST performance soon...and learn how to discipline my mind to be PERFECTLY clear when I get on stage...nervousness may lead to the disastrous event of 'hand freeze'...if that happens, I'll never forgive myself...Hope my section does put in their best on that day. It shall be the final day for us...The final day we are BAND MEMBERS...

P.S. dear dearx...dun think too much okaez...I'll be right here with you... =p