So Many Lost Opportunities...(Of a New Kind!)

It's been two days since the last band practice...Although on that day I wasn't very pleased. Hahaz...no, no scoldings or anything like that. Okay, it was like this. Combine in the music room, playing all the songs we were doing for the upcoming performance..."Ok, take out your Final Countdown" Oh the joy of hearing that! Hehez...Final Countdown is my personal favourite...especially with myself at the drumset. He started, went around four bars into the song, and then stopped. "Ok, Final Countdown so easy, I don't think you all need to practice. Take out your Washington Post." KAOZ! I was havin so much fun (although it was only four bars) and he just stopped! Nevermind that. You should've seen the look on my face. =p

Number two for lost opportunities! The final part for the practice; the great competition repertoire! Only me and one of my juniors were on the snare drum then. He turned to face me and said..."Khairul, this is our big solo!" I nodded back, skillfully throwing my sticks into the air and catching them on the other side. "Let's do this!" The excitement was there...we were revved up and ready to go...

The fanfare began, and adrenaline rushed inside of me...and when it ended, it happened again! He stopped again...and said "Go to 197!" DUDE! THAT'S LIKE, THE END OF THE REPERTOIRE ALREADY! Oh well, gotta put up with it. Hope that doesn't happen again...=p Alright, I think I've said enough...

Always On My Mind......

Yes, I am forgetting her...slowly but surely...but there's only one thing that keeps bothering me...Everytime I see her, I still have this strange feeling inside me...I don't quite know how to explain it...I just feel it. It's becoming pretty hard for me to do this...Frankly, I don't really know if I can. But I knew from the start of this that it would be better for the both of us...Especially after I was enlightened by my god-ma on that fateful day...

I always saw Her as the perfect little angel, cute and lovable, very kind, very...laughable. At that time I knew she'd be the one for me. But it might have been my fault that it didn't work out, as I am obviously horrible at initiating a relationship. I dunno why, don't ask me. Should get the Idiot's Guide to Love thingy...or what's it called...Anyway, after that day in the canteen, I realized Her true self. (Please...don't mind me typing this...) She, as I had always thought, (although I refused to believe) was a flirt...Yes, there, I said it. She liked to hang around with other guys, acting so close to them. Of course you would know how I felt when that happened. (You know, I really don't mind now.) But in spite of that I perservered, trying every ways and means to get her attention, but to no avail.

When I finally decided that I'd give up all hopes of starting anything with her, I was torn apart, basically. It felt like, Slash, criss cross, jab, slice, then ripped, quartered, then torn to little pieces...Yes, it was a tough decision (apart from what I had to decide on before that...Ughh...) But it was sensible as I had thought, and the same with my peers. I knew I'd done the right thing...

Just seeking to do well with what I have now...and cherish others who truly care for me...I learnt a lot from this...Can you tell? Nevermind. Thanks God-Ma!!

Stupid Notes....

One thing learnt today in the life of copying conductor scores...KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE FRICKIN' NOTES! Yeah, it DID happen to me today. I was, you know, practicing writing scores for the band sections...and I was actually doing a 3rd Clarinet score...alright...a semiquaver here...half rest, and FINALLY, a quaver to end it all! Oh, the joy in completing almost half an hour or hard work...but little did I know... ... Enter Kenrick... "Very good...so fast finish? hm...wait a minute...aren't you supposed to be doing the 3RD CLARINET score?" He said...a chill trickled its way down my spine...I then realized..."OH CRAP! THIS SCORE IS FOR 1ST CLARINET!!!" Man, you can't EVER realize the pain...Hahaz...Lesson learnt...KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN!! =p

Big Big Things Happenin' !!

Something BIG happened today...something REALLY BIG...Too bad I have sworn not to dig any deeper or reveal anything related. And with that, I have decided NOT to go deeper into this issue. It's hurtin' me as much as them, trust me. Woohoo! BAND TOMORROW!!! Can't wait...The new songs roxorz...but there's just this one thing...I'M GOING TO CONDUCT ONE OF THEM!!! This shocking sh*t smacked me in the face when my the P man announced it during the last band practice...Yes, I should be confident, but the skill of conducting leaves a lot to be desired. Take me under your instruction, Kenrick!!! Teach me to be like you!!! Or...maybe not. Just teach me how to be a great conductor... =p Well, about the relationship thing...I've made up my mind...to completely give up on it. Truthfully, I don't really see any future with myself going on like a love blinded idiot. Why should I torture myself with this thing when I can use the lost time to make up for what I have now? Didn't really see things that way before last week...I was truly blinded by love. But rest assured I won't let this thing happen for a long long time. I WILL NOT! (For the time being). And kudos to Lisa Cheng for tearing off part of my shirt pocket. Oh how I longed for the beautiful satisfying sound of cotton and polyester ripping apart. The great moment. The hanging pocket. Excellent...First my pants pocket, now my SHIRT pocket...what next? I'll leave that up to her to decide...The great Punut Pincher...Don't blame me for calling her that. Hahaz...I just realized something...why waste my love on someone unworthy, when I waste it on other people? I love my family, my friends...(Yes, I do have a great love, yes, I do mean love, for all my friends. Some are bastards, some are bitches, but, yes, I do love them as friends.) Okay, that's enough...OWWWWWWWWCHHH!!! Gettin a cramp in my little finger! Gotta go! =D

Second Thoughts......

Phew...After a tiring day at band...well...my eyes are sore...and the worst thing about it is...I have absolutely no idea why. Man, I'd hate to tell you this, but I kinda hate too much responsibility. Sure, I'll try to cope with upcoming events, but sometimes it just gets too much for me. Plus I got another thing on my mind today, with the help of my beloved god-ma, to bother me for quite some time. In fact, it's been bothering me for a VERY long time. I'm having second thoughts about initiating a relationship, or in short, I'm thinking of giving up on a girl I've truly loved for the past year. Whether she feels it or not, I don't really care anymore. I just cant't take the pain of loving someone and not having her feel the same for me...oh well. Put the bad things behind you and get along with life...Gee, this blogger thing is really helping me relieve some stress...=p

Just Another......

Yet another day of fun-filled, exciting, exhilarating...slacking at home after a terrible weekend. Hopelessly sick for three days in a row with hardly any energy to lift a finger and generating heat like a nuclear power plant, yeah, I was just there...lyin' around, trying to get those weird voices out of my head. But look on the bright side! Oops...wait...what bright side...Oh no matter, a great day in band tomorrow will definitely cheer me up. I can't wait to see all my pals and tap that ol' drum of mine. *yawnz*...hm....those antibiotics are really deep. Well, gotta go shake them off with a can of beer...hehe...just kiddin'. See ya!