Always On My Mind......
Yes, I am forgetting her...slowly but surely...but there's only one thing that keeps bothering me...Everytime I see her, I still have this strange feeling inside me...I don't quite know how to explain it...I just feel it. It's becoming pretty hard for me to do this...Frankly, I don't really know if I can. But I knew from the start of this that it would be better for the both of us...Especially after I was enlightened by my god-ma on that fateful day...
I always saw Her as the perfect little angel, cute and lovable, very kind, very...laughable. At that time I knew she'd be the one for me. But it might have been my fault that it didn't work out, as I am obviously horrible at initiating a relationship. I dunno why, don't ask me. Should get the Idiot's Guide to Love thingy...or what's it called...Anyway, after that day in the canteen, I realized Her true self. (Please...don't mind me typing this...) She, as I had always thought, (although I refused to believe) was a flirt...Yes, there, I said it. She liked to hang around with other guys, acting so close to them. Of course you would know how I felt when that happened. (You know, I really don't mind now.) But in spite of that I perservered, trying every ways and means to get her attention, but to no avail.
When I finally decided that I'd give up all hopes of starting anything with her, I was torn apart, basically. It felt like, Slash, criss cross, jab, slice, then ripped, quartered, then torn to little pieces...Yes, it was a tough decision (apart from what I had to decide on before that...Ughh...) But it was sensible as I had thought, and the same with my peers. I knew I'd done the right thing...
Just seeking to do well with what I have now...and cherish others who truly care for me...I learnt a lot from this...Can you tell? Nevermind. Thanks God-Ma!!
I always saw Her as the perfect little angel, cute and lovable, very kind, very...laughable. At that time I knew she'd be the one for me. But it might have been my fault that it didn't work out, as I am obviously horrible at initiating a relationship. I dunno why, don't ask me. Should get the Idiot's Guide to Love thingy...or what's it called...Anyway, after that day in the canteen, I realized Her true self. (Please...don't mind me typing this...) She, as I had always thought, (although I refused to believe) was a flirt...Yes, there, I said it. She liked to hang around with other guys, acting so close to them. Of course you would know how I felt when that happened. (You know, I really don't mind now.) But in spite of that I perservered, trying every ways and means to get her attention, but to no avail.
When I finally decided that I'd give up all hopes of starting anything with her, I was torn apart, basically. It felt like, Slash, criss cross, jab, slice, then ripped, quartered, then torn to little pieces...Yes, it was a tough decision (apart from what I had to decide on before that...Ughh...) But it was sensible as I had thought, and the same with my peers. I knew I'd done the right thing...
Just seeking to do well with what I have now...and cherish others who truly care for me...I learnt a lot from this...Can you tell? Nevermind. Thanks God-Ma!!
1 Comments:
At 1:17 AM ,
tRuMpRtEr aLwAyS said...
Yoz Er zi! Hey, i know its tough to go on or forget her, but its good that you are trying... I have faith in you that you can do it one... No point going on right? And its realy not worth it waiting for her... Get one who is more faithful okie... I don wanna see my son sad... Love can wait, meanwhile, have fun with your god-family first lahz... Hahaz... You this guy got alot of peolple like one... Don make yourself hate her, but constantly remind yourself these points:
1) Any future ahead between you two?
2) Is she true to you?
3) Is she worth it?
4) What good has she deen doing to you(seems like she
has hurt you more)
5) You always have a God-ma, brothers and sisters
behind you, so stay cheerful and DO NOT COMMIT ANYMORE mistakes ar...
Okie, With lots of loves(as a God-ma) *muacks* Stay happy and cheerful... Take care...
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