I'm back from camp...yesterday I had BO duty which means I had to stay in, and the enormous excess of free time due to that gave me the opportunity to ponder, think, and remember a lot of things, and I also had the privilege of being able to pen them down though I was hopelessly short of paper. The songs you see below and in subsequent posts under this date are the result of my reflections...I don't think I'll be writing any more than what I've posted today. I think I've written enough. I kinda like this particular one just below; besides the first one I ever wrote and posted (it's down there somewhere)

There are just those moments in life when you feel so empty after you've lost something or perhaps just didn't gain something you wanted so much. It's normal to feel this way, I suppose. And it's in this time you seem to eat less, sleep less, and lose the zest for life and the many things you used to find so interesting. It's a terrible, draining phase, but I think everyone's been through it, more or less. When you snap out of the whirlpool of zig-zagged emotions and finally step out into the light, and embrace all the other things life has in store for you, maybe you'd stop feeling...

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"Alone"

Words
Could be misconceptions, about the things I see in you
Faith
Is a lie of passion, when I feel the way I do

Tonight, with my heart still bleeding
I wake up just to see

The closing doors
I've been washed ashore
To a place where I feel
So empty, so...

[Chorus]
Alone
Tell me how I should feel
Now that I know this can't be real
There's nothing left inside of me
And I never knew how much I wanted, needed you until I'd lost you
So
Tell me how I should deal
With the fact that I love you still
How will I ever move on
When I know I'll feel...so alone

Cold
The feeling always lingering, the trembling, shaking, icy hands, I
Need
Your hands, smile, that interlocking five
Do you remember how that used to feel?

Breathe
I learnt to love it more when you're with me
Cuz' I lived again, you brought me back
To see, to touch, to taste, to hear,
To smell the heaven that was your hair
But it's gone now
And I can't help feeling so

Alone
Tell me how I should feel
Now that I know this can't be real
There's nothing left inside of me
And I never knew how much I wanted, needed you until I'd lost you
So
Tell me how I should deal
With the fact that I love you still
How will I ever move on
When I know I'll feel...so alone

I know that you're not ready
But baby please say that you love me
So at least I'll know that this feeling isn't gone
There's nothing more I'd ever want and
I wish you'd come back and take my hand
Then maybe I'll stop feeling so dead, so

Alone
Tell me how I should feel
Now that I know this can't be real
There's nothing left inside of me
And I never knew how much I wanted, needed you until I'd lost you
So
Tell me how I should deal
With the fact that I love you still
How will I ever move on
When I know I'll feel...so alone.