apparently I made my mum angry this morning about mentioning to her that I was going to go th PY today [ which I'm not since they are not moving today =) ]...she said
"Why so kaypoh? It's none of your business already what?"
"Hey, I've been making it my business for the past year. Why can't you just let me be?"
"Eh. Don't be rude okay."
Fuck, you haven't seen how rude I can really get. What is it that you don't understand. See lah. I told you you should have watched that MOE thing yesterday. Then you will understand and realize that EVERY TEEN HAS A DREAM. and that dream, for me, lies in the Titans band. It's my passion and I love being there. So why the fuck can't you just let me be? What have you got to lose by letting me go for band? You don't have to pay, you still have me around in the evening, I still spend weekends at home most of the time.
After all these years I still can't understand why she won't let me have the simplest freedom to go for band back at PY although I've already graduated. I didn't join the Alumni for nothing, you know. And even if I hadn't, that place would still be every bit as special to me as it is now. The band is where I learned character, respect, determination, undying resolve, where I sharpened my skills, made lifelong friends and experienced the unimaginable. Where else can you get that stuff?
Like what a mum of a french horn player from TK band said last night on tv:
"Winning competitions, learning new skills, gaining character...it's just something we cannot give."
I wish my mum was as supportive as this. She has no idea what I stand to gain from being with this band and with the Alumni. There's just so many things that I've picked up, learned and applied throughout these years. I meet great people like mr poh, who, although should be concentrating solely on studying in school, makes time to work at bandworld, organising events, and come for band to build up our standard. He's really something, I must tell you. Bringing up the band singlehandedly from nothing to something in a matter of years, and he's just twenty years old. The youngest conductor in Singapore to achieve two gold medals in a row. I cannot imagine the sacrifice he had conceded for so long. Too long for others, but for him, it's just part and parcel of a man growing into excellence.
I really don't know why. hmmm...maybe I should just rebel one day to show her that she can't dictate my life now. I'm already sixteen godamnit. What can I do to get the freedom I deserve?
God knows.
"Why so kaypoh? It's none of your business already what?"
"Hey, I've been making it my business for the past year. Why can't you just let me be?"
"Eh. Don't be rude okay."
Fuck, you haven't seen how rude I can really get. What is it that you don't understand. See lah. I told you you should have watched that MOE thing yesterday. Then you will understand and realize that EVERY TEEN HAS A DREAM. and that dream, for me, lies in the Titans band. It's my passion and I love being there. So why the fuck can't you just let me be? What have you got to lose by letting me go for band? You don't have to pay, you still have me around in the evening, I still spend weekends at home most of the time.
After all these years I still can't understand why she won't let me have the simplest freedom to go for band back at PY although I've already graduated. I didn't join the Alumni for nothing, you know. And even if I hadn't, that place would still be every bit as special to me as it is now. The band is where I learned character, respect, determination, undying resolve, where I sharpened my skills, made lifelong friends and experienced the unimaginable. Where else can you get that stuff?
Like what a mum of a french horn player from TK band said last night on tv:
"Winning competitions, learning new skills, gaining character...it's just something we cannot give."
I wish my mum was as supportive as this. She has no idea what I stand to gain from being with this band and with the Alumni. There's just so many things that I've picked up, learned and applied throughout these years. I meet great people like mr poh, who, although should be concentrating solely on studying in school, makes time to work at bandworld, organising events, and come for band to build up our standard. He's really something, I must tell you. Bringing up the band singlehandedly from nothing to something in a matter of years, and he's just twenty years old. The youngest conductor in Singapore to achieve two gold medals in a row. I cannot imagine the sacrifice he had conceded for so long. Too long for others, but for him, it's just part and parcel of a man growing into excellence.
I really don't know why. hmmm...maybe I should just rebel one day to show her that she can't dictate my life now. I'm already sixteen godamnit. What can I do to get the freedom I deserve?
God knows.
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