Out of nowhere, (or maybe was it somewhere?) I've found the motivation to STUDY. funny, because anyone would know me would think of me as

Khairul + STUDY = WTF!?!?

yes yes...I'm the kind who doesn't study much eh? But I realized, in this competitive and challenging environment I am in now... -.-" not studying will leave me down in the dumps and aspiring to become something quite impossible. Guessed it again. STUDYING (do I have to caps it all the time...well it seems weird on its own anyway) will, and has been, becoming a bidder for the little timeslots I have during weekdays. As for weekends, well I'm strict about having STUDYING taking up my well deserved free time, but I'm not saying it's not a possibility. great. -.-

I HATE MEDICINE BALLS! for any of you who has absolutely no idea what a medicine ball is. Try this. Get an empty basketball, and FILL IT WITH LEAD. I was lifting, carrying, and doing sit-ups with this nasty 4kg nightmare...lifting up and out, 40 times, lifting up with one hand, 40 times, sit ups 40 times, back arches while lifting the damn thing 40 times...WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!!!!! lol. sorry for the over-ranting...mondays get me so pissed. haha. especially because of the PE period. one period, yes. but one period of absolute torture. never once has there been a monday without senseless aching and overwhelming exhaustion.. -.-

The entire two GP periods today were damn slack. The entire back row was discussing about ponning econs (the next two periods, last two of the day). before that during our one period break we were discussing about ponning SCHOOL. lol. 12:50pm. gates open. tempting? yes, but conscience kept us behind till the usual 3:30pm. hahaha. see, conscience kept me a good boy. Not that I really wanted to, though. Dunno why, but everyone was especially tired today...not a good sign. its only MONDAY!!! still got three days to go. Friday is vesak day, remember? But I got band from 3pm - 6pm -_____-" wednesday gotta hand in this application thingy for the committee in the band. Apparently EVERY J1 has to 'apply' for a place in the committee. isn't that just peachy. First I land in a band I have no emotion for, then you want me to try to serve it... oh, the world IS coming to an end. -.- forget it...I'll just come up with something unconvincing. =)

Speaking of which...band today was.... -.-" 2 percussionists and a bunch of other unwilling guys to move down percussion instruments from band room (2nd floor) to hall (equivalent of basement1). did it all in 20+ minutes...wayyyy behind schedule. They were a *little* more willing to bring up the instruments after band though. Just because they could only go home if they'd brought everything up already -.- nvm. Can't blame the mindset though. Isn't that how most people get their motivation nowadays anyway.

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Finally gotten interest to play the guitar nowadays. main motivation? ability to play songs I like...like some soothing ones from FF8 and stuff, and others? sometimes I just make them up. lol. hey, its not crap okay. it sounds quite alright...though everytime I play it its just random -.- will I ever stop leaving things undone?

chen pei is pestering me for her present. -.- in progress okay. lol. I got no time...you'll get it on thursday. dun worry miss thick skin supreme. =)

many thanks to one and all for gracing this time to read up......farewell....and goodnight!