We humans are a weird bunch. Though we try to live our lives simply and happily, we always seem, by ourselves, to find some way to complicate it, to mess it up, to give us untold, unexplained, and mostly unwanted emotions. We do things the hard way when the easy path is laid right before us. We take things the wrong way even though what's the truth is plain and simple. I'm a good example right now. Currently I'm trapped in one of those moody stupors where I feel I have a lot on my chest, rooted deep inside. But somehow I can't put my emotions in words. Is is supposed to be this way?

Ah, the heart and mind, two single syllable words, yet meaning so much and carrying so much weight! How these can manipulate you however they want and turn you into something you'd never expect!

Oh yes, you may say that only we can control our own minds. How about when you're in one of those occasions where decisions seem to come out of nowhere. That's probably your heart messing with your emotions and sending all the wrong things up to your mind. And that's where you get chained in this emotional abyss I'm in right now. Too profound? You have absolutely no idea how powerful that little red thingy in your chest is. Pumping away happily. It's messing with you. hahaha...I sound like an idiot don't I? Every day I go on rambling about these stuff when some of you may think it's not true at all. Well, for me, it is. Seems I've been like this for the past 16 years. Sad, but true. One of the paradoxes ruling my life right now.

Ever had one of those little mishaps where words seemed to come from out of nowhere? Thumbs moving by themselves typing things dictated by your heart and not your mind? And when you see the pop up "Message Sent" you realize :

"Oh shit."

hahaha...oh yes...one of those funny yet intensely frightening moments. Heart rate increases one hundred percent. Your next received message may spell the end of your life. hahaha. exaggeration? You might have felt that way some time or another. I did. -.-"

Or how about those times when you felt you should've done it the right way instead of the preferred way, like one of those situations you get mixed feelings. That blank, expressionless face you show when you try to make a quick decision. Nope. You end up standing there. stoned. -.-" what to do...what to do. It's amazing how you can make supposed mistakes in this situation. Never had one? Great. I seem to be the only one having all these weird encounters.

So, is this post more impressionist or more philosophical? Don't ask me, because I frankly can't tell.

Oh, the horror. I can count down to the Central Judging SYF on saturday with less than five fingers! Yes, only four days left. Those who have no idea, well, this four days can be counted down to either the BEGINNING, or, saddening. The END. Go figure why.