Haven't been blogging for a long, long time. Maybe it's because I'm not in the mood, I don't quite know myself. Blame it on my mood, or on my plain laziness, cuz that's just the way I am. The past few days and weeks have been stormy for me; I was blinded by what I could not see, engulfed by voices I cannot hear. Sleep has been both sweet and sour, for those who know why, I need not say. Times where my heart feels deeply sorrowful and heavy, others where it glitters with joy and content; I don't feel that way very much right now. The airy, carefree feeling I used to get all the time doesn't seem to be coming my way this time. Not now, at least, hopefully not forever. What's left to do than to wait? No matter what comes by, no matter how I try to prevent myself from making more mistakes, nothing can be stopped the way I would wish them to. All I have to do now is wait, wait and let go. Let go of something I've held on to for far too long, yet something I'd wish to hold on to forever.

I want to relive memories of my past.

I want to carry my past into the future.



I need a hug..... I miss the past......