Happy Chinese New Year everyone! let's welcome the year of the dog with lots of cuddly love with our little pawed pals...lol. I'm super lame. Sorry for the lack of entries over the past few days. I must say I've been quite moodless. Like I've said before, everything I do is based on my mood. If I have a lot to say but no mood to say it, well, too bad. haha. It's the second day of chinese new year and I haven't been tapping into the spirit very much at all. There just isn't that excitement like I used to feel in my childhood days (am i still a child, or what?). I think many of you would see a similar notion in chang yuan's blog. I just don't put much interest into it anymore. Even collecting ang pows are not as exciting anymore, just a whole lot of embarrassment. I dunno why. It feels strange to receive sums of cash from people, even if they're someone close to you. Oh well, put it to good use, is what I can say and will do.
Here's a little bit of what went on yesterday. Woke up at like..10.30 in the morning, lazed around like I always do, then my aunt's family came at around 1 or 2 plus in the afternoon...had some fun with my cousins, though I usually find them irritating. Well, the twins aren't irritating at all, just the old one. damn, he is like a child on a diet of chocolate and ecstasy. I have no idea how he jumps about and makes those weird random movements whenever he fools around. They went back about an hour or so later, except my oldest cousin...he wanted to stay behind cuz mum, grandma and I were going over to their house later on anyway. Then sis called, saying she'd be free and would like to come yesterday than today. GREAT! why not? She's the one who puts the smiles into chinese new year boredom.
*fast forward*
sis came...in an oriental top and black pants...nice! we talked alot (not as much as we did last year...so sad! dunno why also.) she used my com and we were at youtube looking at all the funny stuffs...only then did I realize that she had a thunderous laughter...haha. after that went over to aunt's house...played soccer with my cousin, both physically and on the xbox...next time cannot play with him liao. everytime I score a goal he restart the match, either that or he gets up and switches off the tv. wtf? kids...I bet I used to be like that though, although not to that extent. After everything we went home...then sis went back from there. goin over to her house on 10feb. after that, who knows? better make the best of it. yesterday was quite a disappointment...i think she spotted the change in me too.
Well, that wasn't actually a *bit* was it. finally got scores for etude in C minor. Any dream of being able to play it well is a foolish one. whats weird about chopin is...he can make a difficult piece look simple. when the pianist brings the score to the piano and tries it out...OMG! sian.
I have no idea what's wrong with me today; I've been putting in alot of effort into searching for scores for that japanese song...forbidden love, or forever love, or whatever it is. qz let me listen to it two years ago. I still remember that moment. at the coffee shop behind spf. It's the kind of song that pulls at your heartstrings and probably make you cry. When you pop those earpieces in and put the song on, it brings you into like, a quiet, peaceful place where all your memories come back to you in a flash, sweet, fond memories, victorious memories. you all know what they are. The kind that pushes you to the extremeties of emotion, the ones that make you feel happy, sad, proud. And you cry because you think you can never relive them ever again. you cry because you feel you've lost something and you can never find again. I should ask qz to send me that song, so I can cry all over again. i play bumblebee on the piano and someone says, "play something nice lah..." put me on a dark stage with a spotlight, with a grand piano polished to perfection, with that song in my mind, let me bring everyone to their emotional knees...bring tears down their cheeks, instill that heartwrenching yet soon after, relieved feeling in their souls. Maybe that's my dream as a pianist. Not someone who demands a standing ovation after a victorious ending of a classical sonata, but someone who demands a standing ovation, with tears of joy rolling down their cheeks, because I've been able to bring out the emotion that very few can manage. I've said before.
I AM AN EMOTIONAL PIANIST.
tomorrow is another day of boredom. i feel like going out. should I squander my money playin LAN, going to the arcade, or should I watch a fulfilling movie?
Here's a little bit of what went on yesterday. Woke up at like..10.30 in the morning, lazed around like I always do, then my aunt's family came at around 1 or 2 plus in the afternoon...had some fun with my cousins, though I usually find them irritating. Well, the twins aren't irritating at all, just the old one. damn, he is like a child on a diet of chocolate and ecstasy. I have no idea how he jumps about and makes those weird random movements whenever he fools around. They went back about an hour or so later, except my oldest cousin...he wanted to stay behind cuz mum, grandma and I were going over to their house later on anyway. Then sis called, saying she'd be free and would like to come yesterday than today. GREAT! why not? She's the one who puts the smiles into chinese new year boredom.
*fast forward*
sis came...in an oriental top and black pants...nice! we talked alot (not as much as we did last year...so sad! dunno why also.) she used my com and we were at youtube looking at all the funny stuffs...only then did I realize that she had a thunderous laughter...haha. after that went over to aunt's house...played soccer with my cousin, both physically and on the xbox...next time cannot play with him liao. everytime I score a goal he restart the match, either that or he gets up and switches off the tv. wtf? kids...I bet I used to be like that though, although not to that extent. After everything we went home...then sis went back from there. goin over to her house on 10feb. after that, who knows? better make the best of it. yesterday was quite a disappointment...i think she spotted the change in me too.
Well, that wasn't actually a *bit* was it. finally got scores for etude in C minor. Any dream of being able to play it well is a foolish one. whats weird about chopin is...he can make a difficult piece look simple. when the pianist brings the score to the piano and tries it out...OMG! sian.
I have no idea what's wrong with me today; I've been putting in alot of effort into searching for scores for that japanese song...forbidden love, or forever love, or whatever it is. qz let me listen to it two years ago. I still remember that moment. at the coffee shop behind spf. It's the kind of song that pulls at your heartstrings and probably make you cry. When you pop those earpieces in and put the song on, it brings you into like, a quiet, peaceful place where all your memories come back to you in a flash, sweet, fond memories, victorious memories. you all know what they are. The kind that pushes you to the extremeties of emotion, the ones that make you feel happy, sad, proud. And you cry because you think you can never relive them ever again. you cry because you feel you've lost something and you can never find again. I should ask qz to send me that song, so I can cry all over again. i play bumblebee on the piano and someone says, "play something nice lah..." put me on a dark stage with a spotlight, with a grand piano polished to perfection, with that song in my mind, let me bring everyone to their emotional knees...bring tears down their cheeks, instill that heartwrenching yet soon after, relieved feeling in their souls. Maybe that's my dream as a pianist. Not someone who demands a standing ovation after a victorious ending of a classical sonata, but someone who demands a standing ovation, with tears of joy rolling down their cheeks, because I've been able to bring out the emotion that very few can manage. I've said before.
I AM AN EMOTIONAL PIANIST.
tomorrow is another day of boredom. i feel like going out. should I squander my money playin LAN, going to the arcade, or should I watch a fulfilling movie?
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