I used to enjoy my life here. I never regretted my decision and had always considered it a blessing. I was in a place where I knew I had purpose. Most importantly, it was a place I liked to be in.

Now, I can say nothing good about it. I've never truly felt the overwhelming need to ORD before this change occurred. Now I can't wait to finish my duties and leave this place, leaving behind the disappointment, disdain and humiliation.

I see no positive light in this issue. The only time for cheering up is when I pack my things and leave...when my identity once again lies in pink background on 8 February 2010.