After seemingly endless consideration I came up with one stark decision, senseless to some, relief to a few, beneficial to one.
I only made that decision because I refused to let myself become a burden, as I have had for the past sixteen years of life. A burden, is something I wish to free myself from having become. Sacrifices did not show up on my life list too, and I never wanted to make any, for personal benefit only. No sacrifice whatsoever, if I remember correctly.
So dire the consequences of my selfishness, so heavy the burden that lay on my chest, as regret; as revelation.
"If you want to achieve something in life, you must give yourself absolutely NO leeway."
That is what I had learnt today, as I have been learning new things everyday, today wasn't an exception. Looking back at choices not so well made, regret takes over, and that justifies this simple sentence. If you want something, work hard to get it, and nothing else. There must not be any escape route for you to take just in case you do not achieve your intended goal. In most minds, it constitutes only one notion.
"Get it big, or don't get it at all."
This...made me remember my decision last year. I wasn't doing well in school. I should've set my goal as getting a good score to get into the JC of my choice earlier that year, but instead I opted to go with my mum's fright-inspired decision to go through DSA.
I looked back with nothing but regret as I got stuck in a JC I wished to explode every morning. And into a band which I wished a fire broke out and melted all the instruments so it'd close down. But now, I look ahead with new prospects.
To give myself no leeway and achieve what I have set before me. A place in NUS, a job paying 5k a month or more, a sports car modified to make others drool, a gaming PC to die for (I intend to stay an avid gamer even in later life) a modest flat, a beautiful and loving wife, who comes last.
The decision has been made, and this was the first I had, which involved a sacrifice made by myself, for the benefit of another. I do not wish to become a burden.
I live...in search...
for myself.
I only made that decision because I refused to let myself become a burden, as I have had for the past sixteen years of life. A burden, is something I wish to free myself from having become. Sacrifices did not show up on my life list too, and I never wanted to make any, for personal benefit only. No sacrifice whatsoever, if I remember correctly.
So dire the consequences of my selfishness, so heavy the burden that lay on my chest, as regret; as revelation.
"If you want to achieve something in life, you must give yourself absolutely NO leeway."
That is what I had learnt today, as I have been learning new things everyday, today wasn't an exception. Looking back at choices not so well made, regret takes over, and that justifies this simple sentence. If you want something, work hard to get it, and nothing else. There must not be any escape route for you to take just in case you do not achieve your intended goal. In most minds, it constitutes only one notion.
"Get it big, or don't get it at all."
This...made me remember my decision last year. I wasn't doing well in school. I should've set my goal as getting a good score to get into the JC of my choice earlier that year, but instead I opted to go with my mum's fright-inspired decision to go through DSA.
I looked back with nothing but regret as I got stuck in a JC I wished to explode every morning. And into a band which I wished a fire broke out and melted all the instruments so it'd close down. But now, I look ahead with new prospects.
To give myself no leeway and achieve what I have set before me. A place in NUS, a job paying 5k a month or more, a sports car modified to make others drool, a gaming PC to die for (I intend to stay an avid gamer even in later life) a modest flat, a beautiful and loving wife, who comes last.
The decision has been made, and this was the first I had, which involved a sacrifice made by myself, for the benefit of another. I do not wish to become a burden.
I live...in search...
for myself.
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