Damn it, what kind of teacher am I man, I teach and teach and teach from 9:30am to 5.00pm and still no marked improvement in the sideline...I haven't conquered ANY of the songs in the repertoire yet...and there's still alot to go. God knows whether they can make it by April, or perhaps, only I know, if I ever try. Is there something wrong with me or my teaching that I just can't get the stuff into their damn thick skulls? Why can't they count, why can't they feel the rhythm, feel the song, why can't they concentrate WHY CAN'T THEY PERFORM!!!!

My fault, right? I do agree...no use reproaching myself over and over again...I spent a solid half hour outside the band room this afternoon figuring out a way to teach them...an effective and sure win way to get them to be able to play properly. No answer. No solution.

But I will not stand to see the sideline dropped right before the competition week or day. They've trained too much and too hard (I feel so.) and Shane, Syafiq and I have tried and worked too hard on them for them to be given up now. No matter what it takes, still have to try.

Anger, frustration...all these negative feelings towards teaching them...all figments of games my brain is trying to play with me...

This time, I'm not playing along.